is 5:31pm. test start 6pm and i am still.. here
Am i strong?
i receive a msg just now.
says that: first time saw me so not confident in front.
Am i always strong in front them?
i always try to be strong confident and smart enough in front
although stress being like that.
only reason, i am only Chinese besides he.
I am not strong as him, i am not smart as him
without any experience, until end of sem 3.
i try to joke to become closer with they
i try to get good result to protect myself
i try to be confidence enough to cover up my fear
1 and half years.
they never saw my tears.
from first day in here, at bidong alone, bully by roomate....
i cried inside blanket
i cried on the bus coming back
i cried on midnight without any light
i cried in staircase
no matter how stress, after all
put up hand-free.... class again
they never know,
i am covered my fear my tear my lonely
with hand-free
no body will able to share it.
even 阿劲
